No turning back…

What do I see in the depths of her heart?

but a child so pure, innocent and set apart…

apart from the filth and innocence robbed…

apart from the trusting hands that cradled her soul…

took her aside and stole what was not theirs…

apart from lies and deep secrets untold…

childhood nightmares…

try to continue to unfold…

give her air…

so she can breathe…

open the window and set her…

Free.

Being 9 years old, I did not understand the sick logic of an old man and his ungodly desire to violate children. Why would the same person who brought so much joy to a family, bring pain? He was a lion in sheep’s clothing, and the least likely to ever be accused of such a crime. The burden he placed upon us to “keep a secret”, was the ultimate breach of trust against generations of children.

To be set free from the pain of my past, everyday I have to believe that I have a choice…

A choice to listen to the lies or the truth

To see myself as healed or broken

To live with shame or to live unashamed

To speak or to silence my voice.

You see, to declare that I’m no longer held captive by my childhood secrets, requires a daily willingness to change how I view myself and a determination to never be bound to that pain again.

~ Denise

Who the Son sets free is free indeed. John 8:36

6 thoughts on “No turning back…

  1. Sexual abuse survivor says:

    I found this post inspirational! I just wrote about some of these same things in my post My Dream. I completely agree that survivors need to take a stand against the abuse they suffered! Feel free to check my blog as well. I look forward to reading your other posts!

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  2. Ragazza Triste says:

    My, this is a brave post. You have a strong heart, dear. To be able to share your past, to uplift other people, to inspire and use your experiences to be free is truly remarkable. You are standing up against abuse and I admire that. Don’t hesitate to visit my blog page, I would love to connect with you. 🙂

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