My pulse is racing, sweat is pouring from my forehead, the lump in my throat is being crushed with each attempt to swallow. A panic attack is nearing…so I open my eyes, and realize I am ok.
Cut the rope from around your neck that’s attempting to choke your reality..
As a survivor of sexual abuse. There had been many years that an “invisible” rope was draped around my neck. Every flashback triggered a negative reaction that seemed to bring an overwhelming sensation of choking.
Literally choking..you know..the feeling of desperately trying to cry out or speak, but the tightening of the muscles around my neck, made it impossible.
The intense emotional pain from the abuse, had me wanting to crawl out of my skin in order to find relief.
“On the Other Side of Fear, Lies Freedom” ~ risingbean
For many years, the pain laid dormant around the exterior of my heart. Which prevented self worth and love to penetrate.
Every prior resistance to healing, is no longer confined to the barriers of those walls.
For over 40 years, I allowed the abuser(s) to have power over me…power over my way of thinking…power over the way I behaved….they controlled my destiny…because I gave them all my power.. Yes, many days, the pain still exists, but I am in a state of constant change that is taking me from despair…to reclaiming my life.
To live in freedom, is MY RITE OF PASSAGE.
I believe that on my Journey to Healing, God is the source of my Strength.
Shatter the glass of any negative in your past, Remove the burden carried upon your back.
Cut the rope from around your neck that’s attempting to choke your reality.
Stand with hope, truth and a desire to face all trials with dignity.
Breathe deep the fragrance of sweet victory. You have the power within to reach your every dream.
Stand up and know exactly whom you are, Lift your head my sister and no longer look down.
For a virtuous Woman is emerging from within.
Copyright ©2008 Denise Boyd